I honestly will never know how I made it through home schooling 2.0.
The last day of homeschooling for me was such a bag of emotions. I think mostly because I couldn’t believe I’d made it. There’s nothing worse than going through something insanely difficult and not having a date you know it’ll end. I find it really had to stay motivated with things without having some kind of carrot dangling in front of me like a holiday or event.
My mental health has been the worst it’s ever been during lockdown and I’m really hoping when everything’s back to not I can get myself back on track. I really hope that my kids have not suffered because of it or their school work but I had to do what I needed and have days to myself when I couldn’t cope.
I wish school starting again meant the end of lockdown but us Melbournians can actually see the light at the end of the tunnel now which has been what we’ve needed.
Every day was filled with melt downs, doors slamming and glass breaking.
Unfortunately we are still in the process of finding the right medication for our youngest with ASD and ADHD so lockdown has been quite unbearable for the most part as his behaviour is at its worst at home and not being able to leave a 5km radius really made things a lot more difficult.
I’ve learnt how resilient my boys are through all of this and I’m so proud of them. I can’t imagine how confusing it’s been for kids to all of a sudden have all the things you find fun just taken away one day with the reason being something you’d never even heard of.
We’ve been trying to deal with issues the boys are both having while not being able to get the support we needed so I’m hoping things will start to go back to normal soon and we can really start to work on them getting the help they need.
When your’e a parent failing or giving up isn’t really an option. As much as this lockdown broke me I still didn’t give up and hubby didn’t give up on me (I would’ve given up on me if roles were reversed..I’m a nightmare)
There were days I didnt want to get out of bed and days I was a mess but I did what I had to do to get through. I leaned on my family and wasn’t ashamed to say I wasn’t coping.
I don’t know if I’d go as far as saying we are coming out of this stronger but after a break or holiday I think we’ll be back with a better mindset.
I’m proud of you Victoria
Next year is going to be our year..
BB xx
Parenting-with a side of depression 