Sleeving the old me behind-surgery Day

I couldn’t decide whether to share this or not ( what? The over sharer wasn’t going to overshare? Thats shocking)

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As you know I’ve struggled with my mental health for 10 years and have had Sleep Apnea that has become quite bad the past couple of years.

My constant exhaustion has had a really negative impact with my mental health over the years especially the past few.

I have tried ever since i started to have kids 10 years ago to loose weight and keep it off. Unfortunately I have never been able to succeed and always managed to put even more back on every time.

Last year instead of giving up and just accepting things would never get better, I decided I would do something that would give me a really good chance of success.. Gastric Sleeve surgery (weight loss surgery)

What’s that? I hear you ask. It’s where they cut out 80% of your stomach so you can no longer overeat (guilty as charged). They do it by keyhole surgery which is quite amazing.

Now this was no Dr Nick behind the dumpster situation (did you say Hiii Doctor Nick in your head when reading that?). I researched the crap out of Melbourne surgeons ( was a little disappointed no one from Greys Anatomy were available..looking at you Meredith. But I found a goodie after asking around in the WLS community (weight loss surgery..yep I’m down with the lingo now)

It’s never been about being a certain dress size for me. There is nothing wrong with being big/curvy/fat. I’ve worked in plus size fashion and I learnt so much about body positivity and how to love myself no matter what a number on a tag says.

For me It’s about improving my Sleep Apnea(or fingers crossed getting rid of it all together) and not having to look like Darth Vader every night with the ugly mask. As well as working on my mental health to be the best version of myself possible so I can be a better Mum and Wife.

I don’t want my kids to constantly see me napping on the weekends because i can’t keep my eyes open or being snappy moody cow to them if I don’t get a nap.

I have taken every step possible to ensure I succeed at this. I’ve been having weekly psychologist sessions and have invested in an Emotional Eating Coach and Dietitian. Despite what people think about it being a quick fix or an easy way out I still have to put in the hard work otherwise it will all have been for nothing. It’s a major surgery to help me get on the right path and succeed in bettering myself.

My husband (being the legend he is) did the two week pre op diet with me where we could only have protein shakes and certain veggies (no potato’s, only the boring ones). No sugars, no fats..no fun.

I can’t even put into words how supportive he has been throughout all of this. Josh even joined himself up to FB pages for supporting spouses through weight loss surgery before I had even joined any myself. He educated himself on everything he needed to know and just blew me away with how amazing he is to me.

He’s lived every bad day,week and month that I’ve had right along side me. He knows when I’m about to go through a depressive episode before I even do. (Some may say he’s like a sniffer dog for depression)

He never gets frustrated or upset with me when I withdraw myself from life. He just lets me do what I need to survive and get through it. He takes on everything from the kids, all the appointments, house work..everything. Just so there’s one thing less on my mind.

My friends are such a great support too. They always check in on me when I’m not doing great and understand when I cancel plans or don’t pick up their calls. My friendship circle is pretty small now but it’s made up of beautiful people that have known me for between 10-15 years and have stuck by me through thick and thin. It’s about quality not quantity with mates. As you get older you’ll realise that.

So I may be a bit high on Endone right now as I write this so it may sound a bit different to my usual blogs but thanks for reading.

So here I am starting a new chapter in my life..watch this space.

BB

Xxx